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Journal Digest -LJ Entry.jce-

Another digest, this time a text file containing text meant to be posted in LiveJournal... that I ended up never posting.

Hoo boy, this is like some years ago. Edited a little parts here and there...



06-13-2006 13:10 BSU Campus (unfinished)
"First Day High"
Gee, it took me about half an hour searching for our first subject room for Tuesday. During the search, I met three of my I-A Group2 classmates, also searching for our room (Sherwin & Christine). We asked a chubby-looking man about to go into one of the ICE Rooms. He old us that our room is in Federizo Hall, under the Engineer bldg. Sherwin knew where it is, so I followed him.

Inside the hall we met others of my classmates, waiting for the Computer Instructor to show up. I tried looking outside for other people who might be our classmates, but I didn't have enough willpower to ask them... As I returned, our Instructor was already there, acquiring the class cards.

In ICE 1, we started our Computer class. We introduced our names and told them the school where we came from. Marcelo and that Divine Smething are the only schools familiar to me. All other schools where most classmates came from I am not familiar with. (uhh, there's a St. James here!?) Our Instructor, Dr. Victoria Valenzuela, held an activity where we must cite 5 first&last names of our classmates. Mine didn't go well, and I was asked if I knew the ones beside me. On my right is Sherwin Hermosa (later I'll find out that Ricohermoso is his whole surname), and on my left is... I was told to ask her for her name... This is likely to be embarassing, but it was OK.

Later on, we are given an activity where we must know the full name of 5 of our classmates. We're given 5mins to ask each other's names. Those that were not called the previous activity were called this time. I knew some of my classmates' names, and I hope to remember it right.

After the Computer class, we searched for this Roxas Bldg/Hall for RT1. Inside the hall, we asked certain teachers where RT1 is. They told us that it's on the rooftop. Realization came, "RT as in rooftop, kaya pala!". In RT1, we waited for our English Instructor. While waiting, I conversed with the classmates beside me. One of them was Mylene, which became one of the group I'm in to now.

Our English Instructor came. While at it, some students kept on looking and excusing themselves to us because the same room of the same subject has been given to them. They were the BSIT I-A Group 1. "Baka sa ibang room kayo." the others and I told them. Then later we discovered that group 1 and group 2 are to be in one class in every subject except the majors (IT & Computer). So this strong-willed naughty-bit Jennifer, who leads the group (or at least I think she does) in talking to newly-seen classmates, called me and asked what the tasks our English Instructor gave us are. She kept on calling me "Kuya! Kuya!". This is the first time I was addressed that by a friend; I felt respected (not in such a way that I am raising my self-worth or anything! It just has this nice ring in the ear -

-). Has it always been like this in Provincial Public Schools??

After the English, we waited again, for Filipino this time. I familiarized myself more to my classmates. Here comes this talkative and naughty but nice guy, Jeffrey Manahan. We talked about something that concerns a bit of my lovelife. "I have not had any close relationship like that to anyone." I told him. I only had a crush on someone, but I wasn't able to tell him that.

Ahh, College Life, here I go!


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06-26-2006 15:00 unf
"Fly-Swatting"
Don't swat me for this. I had to write this down, otherwise my brain will keep on telling me this everytime I swat flies! This LJ entry will all be about fly swatting, so skip it if you don't swat flies... Well, you could continue reading anyway ^_^. Here goes:

-*and so, the fly-swatting guide was never written*


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10/16/06 22:30 Home unf
"First Ever Project Workout! -+-"
You heard it right. Workout! Our IT project is really time consuming and requires careful analyzation and connection of wires & stuff. We're working on a BCD Adder with Decimal correction of some sort.

Oi! We celebrated our only REAL girl's birthday yesterday! We gave her a very cool or bongga cake!

Right before Genneilyn goes home, I took a picture of us for my first ever invitation of my friends to my home, and for working with the IT project. Thanks, guys! ^_^


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11/18 Check for existing entry
I'm in Matt's home right now! XD


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12/9 11:20 Home |Karma EN>
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Another digest, this time a text file containing text meant to be posted in LiveJournal... that I ended up never posting.

Hoo boy, this is like some years ago. Edited a little parts here and there...



06-13-2006 13:10 BSU Campus (unfinished)
"First Day High"
Gee, it took me about half an hour searching for our first subject room for Tuesday. During the search, I met three of my I-A Group2 classmates, also searching for our room (Sherwin & Christine). We asked a chubby-looking man about to go into one of the ICE Rooms. He old us that our room is in Federizo Hall, under the Engineer bldg. Sherwin knew where it is, so I followed him.

<lj-cut text="Inside the hall...">Inside the hall we met others of my classmates, waiting for the Computer Instructor to show up. I tried looking outside for other people who might be our classmates, but I didn't have enough willpower to ask them... As I returned, our Instructor was already there, acquiring the class cards.

In ICE 1, we started our Computer class. We introduced our names and told them the school where we came from. Marcelo and that Divine Smething are the only schools familiar to me. All other schools where most classmates came from I am not familiar with. (uhh, there's a St. James here!?) Our Instructor, Dr. Victoria Valenzuela, held an activity where we must cite 5 first&last names of our classmates. Mine didn't go well, and I was asked if I knew the ones beside me. On my right is Sherwin Hermosa (later I'll find out that Ricohermoso is his whole surname), and on my left is... I was told to ask her for her name... This is likely to be embarassing, but it was OK.

Later on, we are given an activity where we must know the full name of 5 of our classmates. We're given 5mins to ask each other's names. Those that were not called the previous activity were called this time. I knew some of my classmates' names, and I hope to remember it <b>right</b>.

After the Computer class, we searched for this Roxas Bldg/Hall for RT1. Inside the hall, we asked certain teachers where RT1 is. They told us that it's on the rooftop. Realization came, "RT as in rooftop, kaya pala!". In RT1, we waited for our English Instructor. While waiting, I conversed with the classmates beside me. One of them was Mylene, which became one of the group I'm in to now.

Our English Instructor came. While at it, some students kept on looking and excusing themselves to us because the same room of the same subject has been given to them. They were the BSIT I-A Group 1. "Baka sa ibang room kayo." the others and I told them. Then later we discovered that group 1 and group 2 are to be in one class in every subject except the majors (IT & Computer). So this strong-willed naughty-bit Jennifer, who leads the group (or at least I think she does) in talking to newly-seen classmates, called me and asked what the tasks our English Instructor gave us are. She kept on calling me "Kuya! Kuya!". This is the first time I was addressed that by a friend; I felt respected (not in such a way that I am raising my self-worth or anything! It just has this nice ring in the ear -<h1>▽</h1>-). Has it always been like this in Provincial Public Schools??

After the English, we waited again, for Filipino this time. I familiarized myself more to my classmates. Here comes this talkative and naughty but nice guy, Jeffrey Manahan. We talked about something that concerns a bit of my lovelife. "I have not had any close relationship like that to anyone." I told him. I only had a crush on someone, but I wasn't able to tell him that.

Ahh, College Life, here I go!


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06-26-2006 15:00 unf
"Fly-Swatting"
Don't swat me for this. I had to write this down, otherwise my brain will keep on telling me this everytime I swat flies! This LJ entry will all be about fly swatting, so skip it if you don't swat flies... Well, you could continue reading anyway ^_^. Here goes:

-*and so, the fly-swatting guide was never written*


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10/16/06 22:30 Home unf
"First Ever Project Workout! -+-"
You heard it right. <b>Workout</b>! Our IT project is really time consuming and requires careful analyzation and connection of wires & stuff. We're working on a BCD Adder with Decimal correction of some sort.

Oi! We celebrated our only REAL girl's birthday yesterday! We gave her a very cool or <i>bongga</i> cake!

Right before Genneilyn goes home, I took a picture of us for my first ever invitation of my friends to my home, and for working with the IT project. Thanks, guys! ^_^


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11/18 Check for existing entry
I'm in Matt's home right now! XD


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12/9 11:20 Home |Karma EN><JP - BUMP OF CHICKEN| UNF
"The 5 Siblings' Cosplay!! XD"
For those redirected from <lj-user=pic_murasaki>:
<b><a href=http://www.sendspace.com/>UP AME Tales of the Abyss Group Cosplay BGM</a></b>
This was supposed to be our BGM while we do our short stuff on stage.

Haaa~h. Here goes my first... no, second cosplay. (the first one is a proxy) I cosplayed Luke of Tales of the Abyss! XD Our costume wasn't finished perfectly, but it went fine! XD

We saw a very cute baby Naruto cosplayer! XDXDXD Everyone who sees the baby Naruto cosplayer squeals XD

On the right side of the house, we met some people who were previously the ones managing on the UP AME conventions. He said we were the first all-sibling group cosplaying here.

The LOVELESS team was adorable XD

We waited out beside the stage and waited for the speakers to call us... The music didn't go well. They confused themselves of what CD to put, I think. GRRRness to them!


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12/15 BSU
"Last Class Day"
This'll be the last day that I am going to see my classmates for the year 2006. <i>Oi! Unlimited ako ngayon sa Globe kaya pwede kong matext at mainform yung mga di pumasok at papasok pa lang na kaklase ko</i>! XD

<b>Oblation run!</b> XD 8 or 10 people are running around BSU naked! Of course, they're masked with cloth around their face. I even tried following them! My classmates noticed, especially Lorena because she commented something to me ^^;;. There was someone who captured a picture of them.

Noel's group is still having difficulty with their <i>Parol</i> project. Emory & I had to help them. Our IT143 Instructor, Sir Jason Villafuerte, also helped us out. For 5 straight days of working on it, it finally worked!

Beside from the project of Noel's Group, I also helped out Lorena on their <i>Parol</i> project. <s>Lorena's crying now. The reason? Probably because her groupmates aren't helping her.</s>


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12/25 22:40 UNF
"Christmas 2006!"
<i>Unlimited ulit ako sa Globe</i> so I am able to text my friends whenever I want to tell them something.

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1/14/07 4:39 UNF(Friend-Lock!)
"1styr College Life"



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1/27 15:20 UNF
"BSU Visits in Satur<i>Days</i>"
No, I, or rather my<i>h</i> group, doesn't have anything to do this NSTP schedule. <i>h</i>Why am I here in BSU, then? To give Jody my id<i>h</i>eas on our Comp123 Project. Besides that, <i>h</i>I came to visit my classmates ^_^



1/29 12:30 BSU Canteen
"The Doubtful"
<i>Minsan</i>... or rather, <i>madalas tinatanong ko sa sarili ko... Kasama ba talaga ako sa grupo, o parang saling-pusa lang? Yung bang kapag kasama nila ako, hindi sila makapagkwentuhan ng ilang topics ng may kalayaan.</i>



2/3 11:00 BSU>Gate3 Area UNF
Thinking of it, I noticed. I'm not fit enough to know much about all my friends. *seeing Emory & Sherwin joke up on Sheina*

Hearing the details of what to do with our NSTP Individual Accomplishment Report, I was really down after hearing that we needed a photo of each NSTP day that we were cleaning... I still remember a few details of what we did on some Saturdays, but the problem's the photos. How the heck are we going to take a picture of the past?? Wait... Did our Instructor said something about this, or even our Accomplishment Report on the first NSTP Saturday of 2nd Semester in the first place??



2/5 11:00 RooftopUNF
I just arrived school coming from home. Standing on area of chairs in front of Natividad Hall, I had the choice of going to the canteen to check up on Jody's group or go up the rooftop. Afraid that I might be late, I chose to run up the stairs. Upstairs, Ma'am Arceta was already here. Seeing their seats vacant, including Sheila, today's reporter, I figured It would've been better if I chose the other option. Now she's being scolded for her being "irresponsible" on their arrival. <s>She was crying a little. I feel sympathy. I figured she also doesn't want being scolded like that.</s>

17:30 BSU>Roxas Hall "LRT"After teaching them what I've learned from browsing dictionaries, I was left with Theresa by my side.


2/6 7:30
We heard Mylene scream for a while in . She sounds so cute! XD

My memory doesn't work right when I'm in front of a PC...


2/7 7:10 Going to School
Is the reason why I can't fix certain problems because I don't know what that certain feeling is? Could be so... But I can discipline myself over it even if I don't know what it is, right? I'm afraid I don't think so. I forgot to "analyze" the problem.



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2/8 11:30 Canteen
I feel like my bond to our (Jody, April, Christine +others) group is getting stronger! So what I needed to do is- Pay more <b>attention</b> to them than thinking of something else, especially morbid things; <b>understand</b> the things they say, and not just laugh because they're laughing (laugh at heart).

20:40 Home
Reading "Chicken Ass for The Soul 4" and "Just When You Think You Can't Do It... DO IT!", I thought ,"What would have happened if I told her and everyone else I love her as soon as love struck me?"

21:35
I'm excited to see the scene going along with my classmates! XD Mom just arrived home. It was disappointing that she wasn't able to borrow <i>Ninang</i>'s DigiCam, but it's alright ^_^. In my opinion, Digital pictures are nice and can take more pictures, physical Films are more detailed. I hope we'll get a Film producing clean, detailed photos in Mercury Drug.


2/9 EK UNF
"My 2006-2007 Field Trip"
Shooting Star

(Note: LJ entry has many pictures!) Around 5:00, I looked around the Main Gate area for my classmates. The firsts I encountered were Mylene and Lorena. Lacking light hitting them, I had to walk near them to realize they're them ;;feels jumping from within with glee XD;;. Frances arrived after a few seconds. Walking deeper inside BSU along hundreds of other ICE (Institute of Computer Education) students, there we met more of our classmates now grouped ;;happy that we now belong with the group XD;;. I seated beside Jody and waited for others to arrive.

I had difficulties on acquiring the camera, so results of me sitting at the backmost seat of the bus. In my opinion, sitting at the back of the bus is somewhat lonely because you'd only be able to talk to your friends who are beside & in front, and you're not much noticed by most of your friends... Lonely? What lonely? Though I <b>was</b> silent, Efraim, Mark Anthony, Joy, Noel and I, together with the friends near us, had one of the the greatest of times back there! XD

The bus started to run as the sun shone up in the East (6:12). Our Tour Guide for the whole trip introduced himself as Kuya Rene, or "Best Friend", and our driver, Kuya Bong. He tells us of something (usually the history) about the place where we are running through.

Picture in Bus. Mcdonalds & Green-Crocodile.


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2/14 BSU Campus
I gave Mylene a loveletter indirectly by Genneilyn's hand.



2/17 14:00
10:00, I tried looking all over BSU for my classmates. I found Glen & his friend sitting on one of the bench in Heroes' Park. After talking with them for a while, Sherwin has sighted me and then called me. We tried looking for Genneilyn and others in ICE4, but it's still closed. We searched the lot of I-Cafes outside Main Gate. We found them in Access Avenue, typing & printing their Accomplishment Report.

I had conversations with Jody. She told me about her, her Mom, and Japan. Sometimes, I think to myself, "She can tell me her life with just that. Now I'm feeling more important for myself for everyone." Some people don't just talk about their life, do they? Or is it because I am in the process of adjustment that I didn't know that people <b>do</b> talk about their lives just like that.



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2/26 13:00 BSU>In front of GYM
Christine greeted me Advanced Happy Birthday! Thanks, Christine! ^_^

14:00 Helps BSIT I-Ds on their Programming Assignment that'll be passed today.


2/27 10:50 BSU Campus
7:20,

Our English Instructor told us what had happened in the Competition that our Mr. & Ms. BSU attended. Aaah, scripted events are so not right.

Sir Jason showed us how a Digital Trainer looks like! X3 Done by BIT 4thyr, their Digital Trainer's placed in a wooden briefcase, with glass covering the ICs. It has its own

Today is Lorena's and my Birthday! XD I've been living on earth for 18 years now. <i>Tanda ko na. Debut daw, debut!</i> Uhh, what will I debut?? Aaah >_<, no idea. Everyone has been greeting Lorena & me. Some even say we're Soul mates!??

Anyway, Thank You Very Much, everyone! XD


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3/3 7:40 Home
Discovers that the one needed by Glen is one of our topics in Social Sciences, I sorta jumped off my seat. I love those kind of realizations - that the ones I was "reading" and the ones I am "reading" right now are related to each other XD

3/23 15:00
The day that we presented our English Speech Choir & Filipino Play. For me, The two groups, Genneilyn's and Sheila's, were the simple speech choirs. Mylene's group was some sort of Orchestra XD. Matt's also full of action |D. The Filipino, though passing through some errors, went great! XD

21:30
Also the day that I had <b>a date</b> with Sir Jason >D. "Bata pa kayo. Nagka-crush din ako, pero hanggang doon lang. Wag mo masyadong seryosohin. Pagkatapos na lang ng College, kapag nagtatrabaho ka na para wala ka nang problema sa pera. Sa ngayon ;shakes his head;, wag muna." "Wag mong madaliin." Thank you for your time, Sir...

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3/24 14:00 AccessAvenue
I texted Matt, asking him where Kim is. He replied to my text that he didn't come with Kim. On the last part of his text was a question "Is My there?" (some of my classmates call Mylene "My" for short). I smiled, laughed a bit and said "Hahah, <i>mamaya na kita re-reply-an!</i> ^_^" ("Hahah, I'll have to reply to you later! ^_^"). Mylene asked me who texted. I answered, lowering my smile a bit, "It's Matt... asking me if... you're in school ^_^." I hope she doesn't misunderstand. It's not that I don't want Matt to know if Mylene's with us. Matt's a good friend, why shouldn't I?

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3/27 12:00
The day that we presented our Projects to our IT123 Instructor.

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3/28 16:00 AccessAvenue
This is the last day of our classes- and the last day for finishing the checking of programs as a project in IT233. Everyone praised and congratulated me after seeing our POS program. Thank you...

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<h1>3/29 13:00 Home</h1>
Christine, MarkAnthony (Frix), Efraim and JR was invited home to solder a few wires & the sockets to their respective PC201. Christine was telling me something about her being the only girl among the group... I sortof didn't understand because she used words I don't know yet >.<;. I hope what I understood was her point. Well, I think the thought of being the only girl among the group <b>does</b> let some people think of unnecessary things... Something like that...? You know, the type of people today... Or just the feeling of an only girl in a group of boys is sort of disturbing or what. Well, if you trust the boys, or at least feel secure with them, I think it's not right to think of such things.

<h1>3/30 20:00 Home</h1>
I somewhat feel stupid introducing my Sisters over and over again... "Some of your classmates have been here, how come I had to introduce them again? You don't even introduce your classmates to your sisters..."

The girls were talking of what you think was the baddest thing you've done. Ayra seem to be really kind because she can't really remember doing anything worse than answering back to her Mom once... or is it that bad already? Of course it's bad, but compared to other bad things like simply <b>lying</b> or worse <b>not telling what happened</b>. I've been answering back to my Mom really frequently whenever I'm angry or pissed off of little things.

Frix & Efraim were left here to get our DigitalTrainer's Layout. Then I noticed that the Acrylic Plastic was too thin! <i>Patay</i>...

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"April Events"
<h1>4/3 23:30 Home</h1>
Sherwin's group there and I are conversing through texts. I'm telling something confidential to Lorena <i>para malibang siya</i>... I told her my feelings toward Mylene. She's using Sherwin's number but I trust her that she won't tell to anybody else. To Frances is alright for me.

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<h1>4/15 "Efraim's Birthday"</h1>UNF
I waited for Estong's response to my SMS starting around 10:45! The sun was burning me to acrisp between Capitolyo & Crossing. To protect myself frmo the sun's rays, I had to stand near a post.

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<h1>4/17 19:20 "Sympathy of a Dispassionate"</h1>
I was reading a part of Reader's Digest April 2007 issue when Bump of Chicken's Ginga Teddou/Tetudou/whatever sang on our PC's speakers. Sanse paused from playing Harvest Moon to let Lisette see a few about one doujin based on Ginga Teddou. I, too, paused from reading and joined them. After glimpses through pages of the doujin where Ed and Al are alone conversing, she laughed a bit, then took Lisette's shoulder for crying on...

I envy her, having this emotional feeling just recollecting what happened on the story. ;sigh; Will I ever get back this <s>vulnerable</s> emotional sensation I lost? Stupid self.

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4/30
"Joy's Death"

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"5/17 - 6/16 /2007 Events"
<h1>5/17 21:42</h1>
Nakakatuwa naman. Yung kinakanta ni Sam Milby sa Maging Sino Ka Man e yung naka-stop sa WinAmp ko ngayon ^_^. Wala lang. "Hinahanap-hanap Kita" by Rivermaya

Uuuy, nag-akap yung dalawa! XD :insert evil thoughts of PicMurasaki and me here >D* *both gets bombed*

<h1>6/9 15:00</h1>
Bad luck. All my downloaded & other files in where we rent Internet has been deleted... Hahah, oh well ^_^. We ought to get a DSL connection soon...

Kimi & Ate Medith came along with Eldest Sis on her way home! ^_^ Kimi brought her Dist costume and the Rose cake. A weird photoshoot on the Abyss characters took place.

Mom & Younger Sis took home a Bluish Moto L71. Ahaha, much smoother videos, with a Pause technique!

I just finished my JP PS FFIV game ahead of PicMurasaki's GBA version.

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<h1>6/16 "Micro-common sense"<h1>
A remarkable instructor indeed. He might boost my whole morale for that.

"Prove me that you are in BSIT." A simple question, but do we have decent answers? "I am here because I think I have the God-given ability of Computer Programming to help people." Hahah, what kind of answer is that? "If you will write your section, ask where to write it, not on the Course box!"

I walked away from them going home... crying... thinking of the times I was doing nonsense... promising myself to be ready and practice <b>this time and always</b> for writing and delivering a report (FIL, ENG), to reading books in advance (probably all), to respect my family, <b>and to have <font size=16>COMMON SENSE</font></b>... Common Sense...

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<h1>Thoughts of the Dispassionate</h1>
While refilling bottles of water to be placed inside the fridge, I tried looking at Mom's point of view on the scene when I'm playing a Playstation game (is saying the name of the game I'm playing need to be told?). Seeing that person delay my request/favors or reminder of tasks reduces my patience for him. He even whines at it. If you convince him to turn off his game, he goes to do your favor with an angry face. Doesn't that make you incensed or something similar?

I am having trouble introducing my High School 4thyr friends to my BSIT 1styr friends. There is something within me that keeps them from knowing each other.

Oh, great! I'm noticing my bad mannerisms. Must <s>change</s> remove those >_<. <i>Yon ba yung tinatawag na <b>burara</b>?</i>

<h1>And here's some random rants:</h1>
Is it alright for ABS-CBN to use copyrighted music of different games, like Flyff, Ragnarok, Final Fantasy VIII, Time Crisis, and the like? It bothers me. They ought to compose their own music if they don't want to piss off several gamers.

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6/17 UNF
6th ToyCon Cosplay! XD
Awright! Here's the second time I cosplay as Luke Fon Fabre! XD It's kind of lonely though that <lj-user=PictoAlchemist> doesn't get to cosplay with us, so she was our CameraMan for that day. Anyhow, she has this MieuMimi (Mieu Ears) Headband desuno, and she's given the privilege of buying anything she wants to buy there.

Along our way to Jollibee...

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6/20 "PBB Wendy Issue"
<i>Ano ba ang nangyayari sa Bahay ni Kuya? Naiirita ako kay Wendy. So sakitan na ito ng mga damdamin. OO nga, nasaktan nga siya, pero yung pagganti na saktan mo din yung nakaaskit sa iyo, tama ba iyon? Alam niya nang nag-e-</i>emote<i>, sasaktan niya pa. Baka naman makapatay pa siya ng tao dahil doon. Pero </i>in that case<i>, sa tingin ko na wala siyang magiging pakialam, sabay sabi na "Ayos lang, e di nabawasan ang plastik sa mundo". Sabihin man sa akin na "O, Theo, ayan ka na naman, nag-iisip ka na naman ng masama sa wala namang ginagawang masama sa iyo.", pero ito yung ugali na nakita ko ngayon kay Wendy e, pano kong di maiisip yon? Pero siyempre depende pa rin kung matatauhan siya.
Taga Navotas pa naman siya. Ganon ba talaga mga galing sa Navotas? Hindi naman siguro, kasi wala naman sa lugar ang pagiging ang sarili niya, or hindi na maganda ang ipinapakita niya.

"May karapatan kang masaktan, pero hindi ibig sabihin non na may karapatan kang manakit." -Kuya (Big Brother)

Sa tingin niya siguro mahirap makipag-ayos sa taong plastik </i>(No, it's not the plastic that you think. This word was just derived from that word. I don't know how the Filipinos make it.)<i>, na nile-</i>label<i> niya kay Beatriz at Gee-an... </i>Anyway, she apologized in the end so it's alright now.<i>

Pakikisama... Ako kaya, matatawag na walang pakisama? Kasi unang una- hindi ako nakakasabay/nakikisabay sa mga usapin nila. Kasi sa tingin ko hindi sapat na sumasama lang ako sa kanila para kami maging isang grupo. Natanong nga ako ni Christine e. "O, sakto nang lima. Bakit lumipat ka pa?" Ako yung </i>excess<i> sa grupo kaya ako yung napapalayo sa kanila. OO, humihingi sila ng paumanhin na malalayo ako sa kanila.

Baka tinatanong niyo kung bakit naka-</i>italize<i> yung Tagalog. Kasi </i>special.

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<h1>6/26 "The Dispassionate's Behavior"</h1>
I'm now being lectured by my friends about my weird behavior. Things of me being not-acting-so-Metropolis-from boy (like doing vices), not knowing my own self, being not aware of my surroundings has been mentioned. My being <s>too</s> close with Jonathan and Matt- in short, boys- became an issue, too! I am really not angry with what they've said. In fact, I'm always glad for someone who could tell their thoughts about me- good or bad.

Now I felt like I never grew up through the years...
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<h1>6/29 "e-games in BSU"</h1>
We were somehow dismissed early in our Programming Class. (We did Lab2, saving elements of an array. As fun as ever XD!) E-games is having a Tournament in BSU's Hostel this day, and I want to see it >_<. I took a quick peek inside, passing permission from the guard. And then I found... Jeff Pondie! XD I found Jeff Pondie playing Audition!!! XDXDXD<!*akaps*> :overwhelming heart-pounding excitement: The guard behind them warned me to go off the playing ground >_<;. It was a brief moment seeing him, and I hope I didn't ruin his Tournament O_O;;.

Matt has reported in our Filipino class today. As expected, our Instructor gives us deep-diving Tagalog words >_< and idioms... <strong>Nah, it's just that we don't know the word that makes it sound <u>deep</u></strong>. A large portion of our Filipino time has been wasted in <s>tradition</s> introductions of latecomers & chit-chats. I should try finding a <i>Retorika</i> book.

After that, I checked up on the e-games event again to see if he's still there. Bringing Mylene with me, I tried talking her about JeffPondie. I wonder why JeffPondie left Mylene? I'm also worrying that I might have been one reason for their separation... I'm not thinking about the reason of me liking her as that reason. It's something else I can't tell even in writing.

After finishing the event inside the Hostel, I was thinking it would've been better if I came along with Mylene on the way home.


Is it alright if I, well, spend my money for my friends more than for me or my family? I'm having this weird feeling lately that some people DO use others' skills for their project or the like. Others could excuse that they seek help from their friends to cover up their deficiency. (I don't even think "to cover up" matches what I want to point out)

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8/15/07
<lj-user=Foxalollita> and I are very much quite & quickly get attached to cute things XD. Here we are, overwhelmed with excitement over the 2D Sprite, 2D Background, 3D Effects MMORPG, <a href="http://www.tricksteronline.com/">Trickster</a>! XD



Jackie Chan's Visa credit card commercial is so cute and very cool! XD



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10/19/2007
Sembreak just started yesterday. *sigh* Why don't I get that comfortable feeling of the short vacation days? I still feel tensed.

What's my status with my classmates? I'm gradually feeling close to few of them the more I put myself with them... at least I think so. I still think of what they think of me.

Bad of me, don't you think? I think I've known the problem for a long time now, but can't try even small things to change it. Lets me think, do I really desire change on myself? Come to think of it, I don't even know myself wholly yet... or is it just that I can't find the exact word to describe me?

I'm beginning to see the bad outcome of helping my class/schoolmates on their programs' source code. I find them relying on me on several programs they've been assigned to do. Yes, I can explain to them how the program works step by step, but that won't improve their IQ as much as when I help them work on their program my themself.

Enough of that. I've been talking to myself about... myself for the duration of the 1st Semester. I must think of ways to... set my true self free (???) and change for the better... "What? Is my helping not true?" No, not that helping part. How I feel about my classmates. What I think of them. What I want to say to them. What I want to comment about what they do... I've always been silent.

Efraim. He's been kind to me. Well, he's always kind anyway. Just these past days, sometimes I get TOO close to Efraim he even embraces me in front of a efw classmates. I reply with a hug, wanting to show that he's been a nice friend... Though I got more suspicious of my classmates entitling me as gay when we sang "This Guy's In Love With You" or whatever its title is while Efraim is behind me. I have no doubt of the suspicion that they're calling me that already... He seems to talk with, and get battered by, Mylene more often now. I somehow envy him of that, but seeing her happy with him lets me feel happy for her.

About Lorena... They're pairing me with Lorena this semester, and it has almost overwritten their thought of my liking to Mylene. It even got to the point that they called on to Lorena instead of Mylene when I'm serving the volley ball (with Christine trying to put Jody in, which is alright for me, I guess)... Texts messages also mention the pair... I know it's just for fun, but I think it crosses the line now...


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10/20/2007
We played on the free server of Philippine Ragnarok Online, <b>valkyrie</b>, for the remaining time we have (45minutes or so)... Lotsa Novices in the Training Ground because they seem to not have used the other alternative map... Boring. I am greatly overwhelmed of thinking "Oh no, not the start again." I also talked to someone then called me newb knowing that my Swordie's only Lv56 (almost started a noob or newb arguement there, too -_-;;).
... Not that I'm bored to play RO itself. I'm bored because I can't play my old character in Chaos server... So yeah, the free server is utterly worthless for me. No point in developing my character there...


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<h2>Random Statement</h2>

Girlfriend of Megatron> <strong>Churvatron</strong> (Yo-tan said so)

"Who's Papa Grade!?" Papa-grade in Tagalog, as in make grade in English.

<i>Sa pagbuhos ng ulan, handa ka bang mabasa muli?
"Kailangan yun para maging matatag ang puso." -Efraim
"Sa ngayon hindi, sa karanasan ng hirap sa pagtuyo ng nabasang puso."
"Kailangan mo lang makisabay."</i>

"Walang sense ang pag-aaral kung hindi ka mag-e-enjoy sa nakapaligid sa iyo." -Genneilyn




11/8/2007 3:48
"It's not that I didn't like to "Bless" to him. But it's not that I would like to "Bless" to him, either. I just don't know what I should do if ever he comes... again..."



11/27/2007 12:28
EARTHQUAKE~ desu!!! o.o;;



2008.05.01
"K-Lite Codec Pack is <3". It made almost all unplayable movies to play in our old Win98SE PC xD.

So what's new with NIS America and their copying of the Official JP Site of the game?
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